Amazing Life

I cannot believe I have two heartbeats in my body right now!! Isn't life amazing? I got to see our lil nugget's heart beat yesterday and I was so elated. I almost started crying in the office. It was the most beautiful thing. 171bpm, just a pumpin away! Brandon was so excited, he couldn't believe how fast it was. When we got to hear it he was in shock. I'm so happy he went. He's going to go to the next one with me as well. Anyway, everything looks really good. No brain or spine defects and Im measuring 9 weeks. My due date is 9/7/09 which is Labor Day! I know chances are slim, but I would love to go into labor on Labor Day!! That would be too funny! So the blood drawing nurse said Im dehydrated. She couldn't get any blood out of me. She had to stick me twice in the arm and once in the hand. It was awful, and even after those she still doesn't think she had enough. I have a big yucky bruise on my arm now, I look like a druggie :( So that whole situation sucked but everything is going well with the little one. Im so happy, I look at the pictures every chance I get. So much in love already :)

First Ultrasound

Tomorrow is my doc appointment and my preg will be confirmed! My last appointment was pointless so Im excited to see proof that I'm pregnant (apparantly symptoms aren't enough haha) Im going to be getting an ultrasound for dates, and some blood work. Im hoping they'll tell me the heart rate so I know my lil nugget is baking! Anyway, I'm really nervous but at excited at the same time, wish me luck!

Accepting Life's Imperfections

Everybody wants life to go as smoothly as possible. The perfect childhood, perfect wedding, perfect baby, perfect body, etc. But when you stop and realize that something so important may not turn out perfect, or even close to it, it feels like someone ripped your heart out. You can't breathe, and while imagining the worst, you possibly start thinking the worst is for sure going to happen. Not knowing is an intense feeling -- how will you cope when the unexpected happens? If everything doesn't happen according to plan, what's the next step? With so much pressure in the world to be as perfect as possible how do you handle the blows from unfriendly neighbors? Certain people are blessed with certain physical features and what if something happens, to where that perfect physique can no longer hold up? All those people that were jealous snigger and laugh because in their eyes, you're no longer better than them (not that you ever truly were) Along with perfect physique, what about the perfect family? What happens when your child turns out to be everything you always said they would never be? Eventually, while your sitting there imagining your future, you'll bump into the fact that nothing will ever be perfect. And while you have that feeling of your heart being ripped from your chest, and the ideas of the worst scenario, you'll have to take a step back and realize--maybe for the first time-- maybe imperfect really isn't all that bad.

Good Morning!

Im hungry, haha. Well, I have been feeling alright so far. Mostly just tired, and I can't eat hardly anything, it all sounds so gross! But on monday I woke up at 3am because my stomach hurt. I couldnt fall back asleep because of it and around 5 I ended up throwing up :( Brandon is such a dork. I get back in bed and he says, "what's wrong with you?" Yeah, he didn't ask if I was ok, he asked what was wrong with me! I told him, "Im pregnant!!!!!" Men, I swear. But anyway, I didnt have any food in my stomach so it was more like dry heaving, and it hurt! Afterwards I felt fine and I haven't been sick since, and I'm hoping my morning sickness ends up being very mild! So on a less gross note, how bout them cardinals huh??!!! Yay! Go cards! I saw on the news this morning that some dummy wrote go cards! on Donovan McNabbs lawn in diesel fuel. People are so stupid sometimes. Cardinals already won, leave him alone! He's probably not going to want to live in Arizona anymore. I know there was an inaugeration yesterday but I'm not going to say anything about it because I think it was ridiculous. So, Im going to mention Jan Brewer's inaugeration as Governor today. YAY! No more Janet Neopolitan (haha, can't spell) Well, Im starving so I have to go find something that sounds at least decent! Later!

Disappointing First Appointment

I'm so sad. My first appointment was so disappointing! I really wanted some confirmation of pregnancy as I'm having a very hard time believing it. We've been trying for so long and now that it's happened I'm in shock adn can't really believe it. Well I didn't see my doc I saw his nurse practitioner. I really like her but she didn't give me so much as a urine pregnancy test! How does she know I'm really pregnant! Maybe I only tested once and had a chemical pregnancy and she wouldn't even know! I know I am still preg but still. I did get weighed, blood pressure, a required STD test, and she "measured" my uterus at 5-6 weeks. I say "measured" because she just did it with her hand....weird but ok. Anyway, I was really disappointed :( The good news is, in 3 weeks I will be getting all the first testing done, like bloodwork and all that good stuff, and Im going to get my first ultrasound! YAY! I can't wait. I should be about 8-9 weeks by then so it should be interesting. Maybe a heartbeat?? That would be nice. Brandon is going with me too so Im super happy that he really wants to be involved. I think he's more excited than I am! Well, for now my due date is September 7, 2009 which is Labor Day!! haha Could you imagine going into labor on Labor Day? I know it never actually happens on the due date but that would be so funny!

First doc appointment is just around the corner!!

Oh, I'm so excited!!!!! My first appointment is this thursday and I can't wait! I'm not exactly sure what they are going to do as I am only going to be 5 weeks and 3 days, so still really early. AAAAAHHHH this is so exciting!!